Happy New Year
It’s currently 11:56 pm, December 31st, and I’m at work. Go figure.
What a blessing it is to be counted among the living, am I right? A whole decade. I have lost so many people within these past 10 years. I feel blessed, though, despite all that has happened. I got married, bought a house, had a baby. Then, I got a divorce, bought a house again and now, at 31 years old, I’m living as a single mom. If you would have told me that 10 years ago, I wouldn’t have believed it. Now, I’m sitting here, reflecting over the past decade, and boy was bittersweet.
One of my goals for 2020 is to go back to school; I have been dreading it but it’s time and I’m hoping that by writing it or saying it out loud I’ll be forced to do so.
Another is to work on my family relationships. I’ve never had a good relationship with a lot of my family members–my father, mother, sisters, and the list goes on. A lot of people don’t know this, but I’ve been on my own since I was 17 years old. The day I graduated from high school I got kicked out. Long story. I have been homeless more times than I can remember, but God has always been good to me. I’ve never dealt with all the hurt and disappointment over the years.
But 2020 is the year to fix that. Not for me, but for my son, Ethan. I want him to know his grandparents, his cousins and know that he has a family. This is the year. I even started by calling my father on Christmas Day; we haven’t spoken in years so I think I’m getting there. Pray for me.
I also want to work on my relationship with God. I have always been a believer but I don’t have a church home and I go once a year. I would like to change that this year and moving forward.
I need to work on my finances, too. I need to be better with money. Money management is a skill I never learned. I got into a relationship with someone who handled all of our finances, so I never had to worry about anything. Now that I am on my own, I need to do better. That’s something I struggled with a lot in 2019. I need to do better.
I want to grow my business. I have a good feeling about this year. Emmalyn Love (my boutique) is going to do great. She is going to be 3 years old and I have learned so much that I feel things can only get better from here. As for Emmalyn Love (the brand, aka me), I’m excited to continue growing and finally start making some money from all the work I have been putting in.
2019 was the first year I made money from blogging/social media. I think I am on the right path.
I’m going to start doing some housework as I need to get my house in order. I’ll be sharing that process with you guys. I have so much to do–the problems of a homeowner. I hope to start exercising more and eating healthily. I say this every year, so we will see. I am also challenging myself to read more and (a big one) I need to be more present in the moment and put my phone down.
I can’t wait to come back and read this post on December 31st, 2020 and see what I have accomplished. I think I am going to make it an annual commitment to help me keep track of accomplishments and things I need to work on.
What are some of your goals for 2020? Let me know!